Why bother?

Does anyone else have a case of the "Why bothers?" every now and then?

It starts in the morning when you would usually put on make up and carefully chose an outfit and then you think....why bother? who will see me?

You consider what you will eat for tea, pondering a nutrionally balanced meal and then you think....why bother? They probably won't eat it anyway.

You plan an outing, a playdate and then think...why bother, they will just fight and moan and I might as well let them play here.....

You consider fresh flowers, a move around of some objects and then....why bother, who else notices?

You look at the garden, the lawns and think...why bother, it will all grow again......

You check for stains, wash, dry, fold, put away thinking all the time.....why do I bother with this...I will have to do it all over again tomorrow......

At the end of the day you consider going to bed early and think why bother, it just means tomorrow morning will arrive quicker than if I stay up late.......

I am at the library choosing interesting, intellectual books and then I think...why bother...who is going to appreciate this new level of knowledge in me......

I stare at all  the little handprints on the windows thinking I need to wipe them off and think, why bother? they will be back tomorrow.

Then I remember that I will.  That I will be happier if I am dressed nicely. That I like being in a tidy environment, that I matter and so do the things that I do and so I do all of the above anyway.....all the while muttering to myself "why do I bother...."